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Post Thu Jun 17, 2010 4:20 pm

Day to day feelings

Y'all ever wake up just feeling really pissed off and you can't for the life of yourself figure out why? God, it is such a goddamn pain! >_<
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Post Thu Jun 17, 2010 9:49 pm

Re: Day to day feelings

Oh, no! Cobra is going Emo on us! Quick, get him some beer and a call girl!

Besides, it really doesn't matter how one feels when they first wake up - it's how you feel when you look in the mirror before you go to sleep. You can wake up cranky, but choose to have a good day and help people. Or you can wake up in a great mood, but then later be a total prick to someone.

Everyone has choices. After you wake up, take your shower and grab a little breakfast, then you can decide how you want to face the day. As for me, I have a very simple mantra: "Illegitimum non carborundum" - or, in English, "Don't let the bastards wear you down". There's plenty of people out there looking to make you miserable - but only you have the power to let them do it or not. Never give in to other people's pettiness or stupidity; never let words from a fool have power over you.

After all, who's in charge of YOUR life? You - or the rest of the world?

Just my opinion...

*hands out more cookies and gives Cobra a double-sized glass of Soy choco-vanilla blend*

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Post Thu Jun 17, 2010 9:53 pm

Re: Day to day feelings

ByteSlinger wrote:Oh, no! Cobra is going Emo on us! Quick, get him some beer and a call girl!


A thread to post random rants and talk about your feelings might not be a bad idea ;)

Cobra, if something is bothering you, feel free to talk about it with us. You know you have our full support :)
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Post Thu Jun 17, 2010 9:54 pm

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That is really helpful Byte. I guess sometimes I just need a reminder of "Don't let the little things piss you off" or any variation thereof.

*takes the choco-vanilla soy milk and cookies and eats them happily.* YAY!
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Post Fri Jun 18, 2010 10:07 pm

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SlntCobra1 wrote:That is really helpful Byte. I guess sometimes I just need a reminder of "Don't let the little things piss you off" or any variation thereof.

*takes the choco-vanilla soy milk and cookies and eats them happily.* YAY!

Well, I do understand where Byte's coming from here... Yet I also understand where you're coming from as well. I've felt like that for a few days now, and I really shouldn't do, considering the whole fact being... Is that I have 2 exams left before I finish school... Hoorah... But something isn't right... I don't feel happy.

Granted, I sometimes wake up pissed off... Such as yourself Cobra, but well... I just make up in a strange mood. I don't know what I do throughout the day, don't remember the day just gone, and don't remember those days before hand. I don't remember what I did, or what I was wearing.

I hate this feeling :\
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Lizzardis wrote:Well, i do understand where Byte's coming from here... Yet I also understand where you're coming from as well. I've felt like that for a few days now, and i really shouldn't do, considering the whole fact being... Is that i have 2 exams left before i finish school... Hoorah... But something isn't right... I don't feel happy.


Oh, my dear Lizz, it's times like this I wish I could just hug you, and then sit you down and let you know that you need to stop worrying about every little thing. You are always very sensitive to what others think of you, and when you make the tiniest mistake, you tend to over-apologize for your errors. In my long history of life, I see this behavior as side effect from someone who wants to control every aspect of his life, usually because they feel they have so little control over it in the first place. When you're not in control, you can get hurt - especially by those who you love and trust. Without bringing up details here, I understand the hurt you feel from your Mum and Dad, and everything that generates from that pain. Now, with Sophie in your life, it's a two-edged sword - on one hand, she makes you feel happy and complete. But on the other hand, that's one more person who could hurt you deeply. It's a very nasty paradox, and can only be healed over time as you learn to truly trust her - and yourself.


Lizzardis wrote:Granted, i sometimes wake up pissed off... Such as yourself Cobra, but well... I just make up in a strange mood. I don't know what i do throughout the day, don't remember the day just gone, and don't remember those days before hand. i don't remember what i did, or what i was wearing.


At your young age, you are still a bundle of hormones and emotions, and with everything racing around in your subconscious, even though your body may shut down at night, your brain isn't resting. It's going through all the scenarios of what could happen - of how you'd feel if Sophie hurt you bad, or if you did something dumb that caused her to leave. You're not getting enough good "deep sleep", and that will definitely make you cranky and feel out of sorts. I know this personally, as I have been down that road too many times myself.


Lizzardis wrote:I hate this feeling :\


Might I suggest a little relaxation technique that I use to help me get past those moments:

Sit down in a comfortable spot, and let your body go as limp as possible. Close your eyes, and draw in a deep, full breath through your nose. Hold it in, and count slowly to 10. As you count, think about the happiness you feel with Sophie, and the pride you feel for ending this school year on such a positive note. Focus on the recent events that made you smile and made you feel good. Once you reach ten, slowly exhale through your mouth. This simple exercise will help you regain your balance and your focus, and help you to keep positive thoughts in your brain.

Life isn't always perfect; but when things start to get overwhelming, the best thing you can do is take a mental break and regain your focus.


*Hugs Lizz, and hands out more cookies and milk*

Hope that helped, my friend!
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Post Sat Jun 19, 2010 1:36 am

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You might as well stop being a computer geek Byte, and change professions to a Zen Master or something similar. Also, why do you always get on here at weird times and then after one post, you log off? o_0
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SlntCobra1 wrote::shock:

You might as well stop being a computer geek Byte, and change professions to a Zen Master or something similar. Also, why do you always get on here at weird times and then after one post, you log off? o_0


The art of Zen is to know that you know nothing. My thoughts are like the wind - and my bladder is like a running stream. I'm back! :D
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Post Sun Jun 20, 2010 9:02 am

Re: Day to day feelings

ByteSlinger wrote:
Oh, my dear Lizz, it's times like this I wish I could just hug you, and then sit you down and let you know that you need to stop worrying about every little thing.


It's time like this when I could actually feel like I could sit down with someone such as yourself, or all of these people I meet over NG, or... Well... You guys in the EGB. It's the fact being that, for some strange reason, I'm frowned upon for saying "Oh yeah well i've been speaking to a woman over the internet", and people always frown at me because they find it strange... Yet you know full well Byte, that I could sit and talk to you for hours. I mean... I've told you things before, that not even my mother knows.

Like when I used to speak to Krev... I used to tell my friends about the funny times we had... Yet, while I was expecting them to laugh along with me... They just turned their heads and said "You'd better be careful on the internet".

Is it so wrong to meet people from over the internet at such things as NG Meet-ups and yeah... Sitting down and having a drink? Or getting a hug from you Byte?

I understand why people get worried... But I mean, at least get to know the people before you start to try and make out like EVERY person on the internet is a paedophile or a murderistic serial killer.


ByteSlinger wrote:You are always very sensitive to what others think of you, and when you make the tiniest mistake, you tend to over-apologize for your errors.

My sensitivity stems from the fact that I feel as if I get things wrong that I do for other people, then i've let them down. Letting people down annoys me, and while I procrastinate far far too much... I (eventually) get things done for the people. Plus, the sensitivity is because of my low confidence and self esteem. While yes, granted... It's risen in the past few months, and sky-rocketed... It's still not normal, and I can't take the fact that being wrong, or doing something wrong is a GOOD thing. See where I'm coming from?

I apologise because I'm scared that if I don't, people wont respect me as much, and I apologise AS SOON AS i've done something, because if I do that... I wont get in much trouble.


ByteSlinger wrote:In my long history of life, I see this behavior as side effect from someone who wants to control every aspect of his life, usually because they feel they have so little control over it in the first place. When you're not in control, you can get hurt - especially by those who you love and trust. Without bringing up details here, I understand the hurt you feel from your Mum and Dad, and everything that generates from that pain. Now, with Sophie in your life, it's a two-edged sword - on one hand, she makes you feel happy and complete. But on the other hand, that's one more person who could hurt you deeply. It's a very nasty paradox, and can only be healed over time as you learn to truly trust her - and yourself.


I feel as if I do trust her, I really do, and I see where you're coming from that i want to control ever aspect of my life... But see, I know I can't control every aspect of my life, because I know things can happen instantaneously and your life can go from happy-fucking-families, to it being ripped apart quite brutality, in a sense that.... You never get to see your father again and you hit rock bottom.

People don't understand the way I think.

My thinking pattern is of one where people don't fully understand. I make up plans, and situations in my head and I find an escape route for if those plans / situations ever arise. For example ; While this wont happen for a very VERY long time, and I can ensure it wont happen... If I were to ever lose my mum or any other family member, I would know what to do. Not only because i've been in that situation before, because i've planned it out and I know what to do.

It's not me being sick... It's me being paranoid and prepared.


ByteSlinger wrote:
At your young age, you are still a bundle of hormones and emotions, and with everything racing around in your subconscious, even though your body may shut down at night, your brain isn't resting. It's going through all the scenarios of what could happen - of how you'd feel if Sophie hurt you bad, or
if you did something dumb that caused her to leave. You're not getting enough good "deep sleep", and that will definitely make you cranky and feel out of sorts. I know this personally, as I have been down that road too many times myself.


That part above that's highlighted in red and underlined is the one thing I worry about every. Single. Second. I worry about what I'm going to say, while I have a good way with my words... I don't when it comes to her. I know what to say, yet i've never been in this position before, so I don't know how to say some things to her, if that makes any sense?

I've screwed up before by saying stupid / insensitive things. It wasn't my fault, it's just my thought pattern and opinions are different from hers. Naturally, we are different sexes, and I see the world how it is, and how it SHOULD be... Whereas she hides it all away and feels that the world is how it is... When in reality... There is much more to the world than she can ever imagine. So much pain and horror, yet so much happiness and excitement.

I see both sides of the coin... She FORCES herself to see the other side, because she is currently going through the "Horror and pain" part.


ByteSlinger wrote:
Might I suggest a little relaxation technique that I use to help me get past those moments:

This simple exercise will help you regain your balance and your focus, and help you to keep positive thoughts in your brain.


While that was a nice technique Byte... You're forgetting... Us guys can not count to 10 AND think of nice thoughts as well. Instead I just thought about the nice thoughts and exhaled when I was ready... Unfortunately my lungs are a bit dodgy at the moment, but I held it for a good 25 - 30 seconds... Much longer than needed... But I got carried away :)

ByteSlinger wrote:
Life isn't always perfect; but when things start to get overwhelming, the best thing you can do is take a mental break and regain your focus.


*Hugs Lizz, and hands out more cookies and milk*

Hope that helped, my friend!

Naturally Byte. I've said to many of many people that life isn't perfect. It's a rounded roller-coaster full of twists and turns, and loop de loops, yet after it all when you know that you've got through the worst ride of your life... You can still be there to pay about £5 for your picture, and as you look at the picture, you can see that you've got a big gleaming smile on your face. The fact is, yeah life's scary, it's like the worst roller-coaster ride ever... But in the end... You got through it, and as you can clearly see... You enjoyed yourself along the way. through the scary twists and turns, and through the upsetting loop de loops. You rode that fucking roller-coaster like it should have been...

And it's the best ride you've ever been on.

Fortunately... I feel quite good about myself today, and I'm in a good mood. (Let's see how long this lasts) It was my friends 16th birthday kind of "get together" last night. A lot of alcohol was consumed (Not by myself since I don't drink a lot, I just had ONE shandy) and it was just brilliant. Yeah people drank a bit too much, felt ill... Yet sobered up and joined in the party again.

We were singing Christmas songs at 12am this morning as we brought in my friends birthday. It was amazing. Then, my girlfriend (Sophie) wanted to sleep, so we went up to a free room. There was another girl in there, to which I didn't mind. Her and Soph slept in the bed, and I slept on a mattress on the floor. I woke up in a great mood, after only about 6 hours sleep... Because I went asleep holding Sophie hand... And woke up holding her hand. Bearing in mind I was a foot below her on the mattress on the floor.

So I'm in a bit of a good mood, and my mother noticed too... Which kinda says something about my previous moods to be honest. I'm hoping this mood sticks around for a while.

Also, I have to apologise for hi-Jacking your thread Cobra. I didn't mean to make this whole thread, the topic of conversation for myself. Heh, I'm sorry.

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Re: Day to day feelings

Yeah, Cobra - sorry about the hijack. But you have touched upon a situation that in fact many people do have to deal with on a daily basis. Each of us handles life differently - but the most important part is that we know if life takes a few bad turns, we have other people to turn to - even if it's on the internet - to help us along.

Lizz, it is awkward to tell someone that you get advice from an "older woman" on the internet who lives half way around the world. In this age of cybersex, stalking and child abuse, I can certainly understand the concerns you face. That is why I am very careful in how I word my posts, and why I avoid any personal contact . I want all of you to grow up and mature like fine young men, and if my experiences can help you out, that's great. Anything I say of a sexual nature is NEVER intended to be an invitation to any person here. Oh, I can kid around with the best of them, but quite honestly, most of you guys are way too young for this old lady. That's why the moniker "Auntie" works well. I'm not your mother, nor do I want to be; I'm not a sex object - oh, gawd, that warranty expired a long time ago!; but I do like to think of myself as the "wise" (and wise-cracking) Aunt that can listen without judging, give advice without fear of rejection, and hand out milk and cookies to make you smile. That's all.
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ByteSlinger wrote:hat is why I am very careful in how I word my posts, and why I avoid any personal contact . I want all of you to grow up and mature like fine young men, and if my experiences can help you out, that's great. Anything I say of a sexual nature is NEVER intended to be an invitation to any person here. Oh, I can kid around with the best of them, but quite honestly, most of you guys are way too young for this old lady. That's why the moniker "Auntie" works well. I'm not your mother, nor do I want to be; I'm not a sex object - oh, gawd, that warranty expired a long time ago!; but I do like to think of myself as the "wise" (and wise-cracking) Aunt that can listen without judging, give advice without fear of rejection, and hand out milk and cookies to make you smile. That's all.


Hey Byte, that wasn't supposed to be a whole having a go at you if you thought that was what it was? If it sounded that way, I didn't mean for it to be. Of course, I don't mind speaking to you, and the fact that I said I struggle to explain it to others was not necessarily a bad thing. I've learned that over the course of the past few months... Not everyone should know about the things I say, or do over the internet.

I'd still appreciate that Auntie of mine from over the internet ;)

I suppose in a sense, I understand why you try and avoid any personal contact, yet I wouldn't mind having an EGB meet-up through NG. I thought that would be quite good. Put a user name to a voice and a face kinda thing.

Still though, don't feel put off by the above post Byte, that wasn't meant to put you off, or question the way you do things at all, and I apologise if it made you feel like that.
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Post Sun Jun 20, 2010 4:45 pm

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As I said over AIM Lizz, you need to do mental self bitch slaps or whatever kind of psychological technique works best for you and try as best you can to learn to let go of this fear of us being disappointed in you. That's just paranoia getting the best of you. I know psychologically you're still trying to find your place in the world, because from 11-19 is when most teens have to deal with the "identity crisis" phase. It's normal, but it is not normal to be in a constant state of paranoia and thinking that your friends will be disappointed in you if you make a small mistake. That is really, really unhealthy. :(
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Post Sun Jun 20, 2010 5:53 pm

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SlntCobra1 wrote:That is really, really unhealthy. :(

It's unhealthy anyway. The way the way I think is unhealthy. The constant feeling of being down, the constant feeling that no-one actually knows my mental state, and whether or not sometimes I question myself and those around me... In fact... I'll make a thread in a second to which will explain a lot of things.

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Lizzardis wrote:Hang tight...[/color]

Boom! Everything is in there. I don't know what more there is to say.
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Post Sun Jun 20, 2010 6:29 pm

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Lizzardis wrote:I suppose in a sense, I understand why you try and avoid any personal contact, yet I wouldn't mind having an EGB meet-up through NG. I thought that would be quite good. Put a user name to a voice and a face kinda thing.


I can appreciate Byte's desire for privacy. However, I would like to start up a "meet the Barracks" thread for those of you that would like to put a picture to the username. I'll start up a thread in a secure forum for you guys. Second best to an actual meetup. Also, for those of you that want to hear voices, we could always hit up Ventrilo. I do have a server for us to use. :)
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